I am 12 weeks pregnant, and I feel amazing. I’ve said it before, it is so weird. I don’t know what to do with it. My only symptoms are being tired, sore boobs and breaking out like a 16 year old.
I am not sick, I am kind of hungry, but not too much more than usual. My pants are a bit tight, but that could be from all the holiday
binging eating I’ve done. If not for the little ball I feel when I lay on my tummy, I would not think I was pregnant.
On Friday though, I had a bit of a scare. I read about someone I know who had a miscarriage. She had said she never felt really connected to the baby and, while she was sad, she was okay with losing it. I have heard that from people who have had miscarriages before. That they never really felt connected to the baby. That scared me because I haven’t felt very connected to this babe. Maybe it’s because I have 4 other little people I am chasing after, or the 56,782 things I have to do everyday – but I hadn’t really connected with this wee one.
So, like any sane woman, I called my midwife. I asked her if I could please come in just to hear a heartbeat. Despite the fact I am going in on Tuesday for my appointment, I just couldn’t wait one more second. She is a doll and told me to come on in. I found somewhere for my hooligans to go, and drove the 30 minutes to her office/home. When I arrived I told her what was going on and how I was feeling. She had me lay down so we could see what was going on.
She immediately could feel the hard bump of my uterus and when she put the doppler on my belly, there it was. At first it was faint and then that little galloping noise grew. We even heard this little one kicking a bit.
That heartbeat changed everything. It made this sweet person real and helped my excitement to grow exponentially. I can’t wait for the next few weeks as my belly starts actually looking like one of a pregnant woman, not just a holiday binger. And I really can’t wait until I can start feeling this sweet little guy moving.
I have a feeling that 6 is going to be my lucky number.