I really have nothing new to say this year. She is still gone, it still hurts, it still is the worst thing I have ever had to endure.

I still miss her, I still wish with all my heart she was here, I still hate that her siblings miss what they never had.

I will never stop loving, missing, wanting, and needing her with me.

I will never stop wanting my life back.

Twelve years gone and it still hurts like it was yesterday.

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